Week of July 10-16 (belated)

[mrissa]

Four rejections. Nothing else. Some of the stories still have to go out from here. As I said before, behind on everything. Today we're helping porphyrin paint for a little while, and tomorrow I'm going to the Falls with ladysea and a herd o' child.

Ista has gotten a lot better about being left with markgritter: she still follows me most of the time, but it isn't a heart-wrenching tragedy when I leave the room. (timprov is not doing well enough to get down on the floor with her or chase her around, so we haven't been leaving him in sole charge of her.) We're currently following one of my mom's parenting rules as much as we can, which is, "don't wake the baby just to change her." Which means our schedule sometimes gets thrown a bit off. These things happen.

I'm still having trouble with food and eating. I mean that physically, so well-intentioned assurances that I should eat normal portions are not necessary: I know that. I know that I should be able to eat an entire normal-sized homemade sandwich at a meal, and I really want to, and I try, but it's been physically pretty difficult. I'm ending up feeling overly full at the same time as I'm still feeling hungry. Not so good. I'm spooked about this, because it hasn't been really this bad since the time I went into a nosedive out in California and ended up with broken ribs, and do we need that? We do not. So: conscious avoidance of the whole nosedive thing. Seems like a good plan, if we can implement it. We'll try.

Comments

[ellameena.livejournal.com]

I hope you feel better soon, Mris. Sounds like a doctor-worthy complaint to me, FWIW, though perhaps you've BTDT.

[dichroic.livejournal.com]

Does it make a difference what you eat, or just food in general?

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

Food. Some things are BAD, but even the things that taste good stop tasting good fairly quickly.

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

Last time I went, the answer was essentially, "Eat enough." Um. Thanks, folks. Well, it's not a consistent problem. Still, it's upsetting and scary.

[sculpin.livejournal.com]

I hesitate to mention this, but last time I was in a situation like that, several years ago, occasional pot-laced cookies were very helpful. I'd gone off my feed -- I'd get halfway through a meal and my throat would close up as if to say, Okay, done now -- and I'd lost enough weight that it was beginning to become a problem. Scary. Then I remembered a story about marijuana helping AIDS patients regain enough appetite to eat enough food to put on a little weight.

[dichroic.livejournal.com]

Hm. I was thinking gallbladder possibilities, if it were specifically meat. I've had similar things happen to me in the past (I have IBS). But I hadn't had anything be BAD instantly. I have gotten naueatingly full on small portions - if I had to sit there a while longer (say, if out to dinner with family) I could usually manage to eat a little more after some time, but not a lot. Problem with IBS is, the symptoms can vary and so can the triggers, and it's basically diagnosed by ruling out everything else.

I've got a little of the hypoglycemia thing, though not nearly to the extent you do, and have basically always handled it by snacking a lot and eating less at meals. Works well enough, if your snacks are fruit or reasonably healthy things. I like to think of it as eating like a bird - specifically, a hummingbird.

I'd concur on the recommendation to see a doctor, but I expect you already have.

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

I've done extensive research on medical marijuana (which, by the way, I support), but I don't think I'm anywhere near the point of wanting a prescription, even if we still lived in a state where that was theoretically legal.

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

No, not meat specifically, nor do I have any pain. Just physical aversion to food. And the last time this happened was almost four years ago, so that's not a very consistent problem.

But yes, I do try to have little snacks throughout the day, fruit and that sort of thing, because then the 4:00 blood sugar crash doesn't bite my butt quite so hard.

[greykev.livejournal.com]

::hugs::

I have no advice. I'm probably the last person who should give dietary advice, but I hope you get to feeling better soonly.

As Michael was fond of saying, 'Don't die.'

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

He's still fond of saying that to me, actually, but it's nostalgia now instead of inability to deal with emotions. He no longer feels the need to enumerate ways in which I am not to die, however, leaving it to me to think of them.

[greykev.livejournal.com]

So long as the emphasis is on the not instead of the die.

I worry 'bout you, so get well huh?

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

I keep on as best I can.

timprov has dubbed me The Little Mrissa Who Could.