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[mrissa]

You know how you feel when you're waiting for an important medical test result, or when someone said they'd let you know about a job by a certain time which is fast approaching, or when you've said something emotionally revelatory and important in a letter or an e-mail and haven't heard back from the person, or...? You know the feeling. Jittery, nervous, edged with dread.

I have no idea why I feel that way. I cannot come up with anything that should make me nervous today or in upcoming days. Dinner, ice cream with my dad, picking up markgritter at the airport...there just isn't anything nervous-making for awhile now. And yet here it is, the dark cloud, the ominous music. It seems to be all neurochemical, or perhaps spinomuscular. I can't see any reason I should be filled with foreboding.

I feel like I felt after the tornado, like I want to put my hands on my loved ones and just make sure they're still there, even though I know they are and there's no reason for them not to be.

Comments

[ellameena.livejournal.com]

I've been feeling a bit that way, too, and I don't know why. The only thing I can figure out is that I've been reading blogs that annoy me, by people I find hateful, petty, and selfish. I think maybe too much of that sort of viewpoint is throwing my worldview off kilter, which is in turn giving me that feeling of "something is rotten in the state of Denmark."

Alternatively, maybe you and I are psychics, and something very bad is about to happen. Duck and cover!

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

ksumnersmith and I have been attempting to convert our Psychic Illness Link into something more pleasant for years now, so let's not get a Psychic Unpleasant Feeling Link going, too! I think a Psychic Story Sale Link is much more appropriate.

[wilfulcait.livejournal.com]

I always tend to blame this sort of thing on barometric pressure.

Whatever it is, I hope it lets up soon!

[rachelmanija.livejournal.com]

You are still waiting on the results from the sleep-deprivation thing, though, right?

I get that feeling though too, sometimes, for anywhere from a few minutes to several days. I used to try to analyze what in my life was making me feel as if a piano was about to fall on my head, but eventually I decided it was the neurological equivalent of a TV going on the fritz for no apparent reason.

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

Yes, but they're not going to call me at some unknown date with the results. I will go in a week from yesterday to get them.

[mkille.livejournal.com]

Sometimes for me when enough dread-producing events have happened, the absence of them in itself produces dread in me, because I expect I will be bushwhacked by one or more unexpected ones ANY MINUTE NOW. In any case, I hope you feel less dreadful soon.

[dichroic.livejournal.com]

But aren't you in fact waiting for results of an important medical test? Even though you know when they're coming, there's still that waiting factor. At least there is for me, on things where I know the dates.

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

That's the feeling I have today, yes: awareness of waiting. The feeling I had yesterday was a good deal more overwhelming.

[blzblack.livejournal.com]

Activating prayers now. Take care.