Bleh.

[mrissa]

Today is the most physically miserable I've been in quite awhile, and while the vertigo has been generally improving, it has not been monotonically improving. Today eating is hard (although that's not all vertigo, I don't think), and moving around the house safely is hard, and being comfortable sitting still is hard, and it's all just hard. And I'm hoping that it is the designated hard day this week, because I will do 4th St. either way, but it's going to be much more fun if it's more like yesterday than like today.

Also I have not been posting Grandpa stories very much, but oh, I miss my grandpa. I am still running into such difficult things. And sometimes it's not even related to a trigger at all. Sometimes I just want my grandpa, dammit.

We got markgritter back this morning, finally. That doesn't make everything better. But it doesn't make anything worse, and several things--notably the lack of markgritter--it does improve substantially. (His 5-day business trip was unexpectedly extended to 8 days. Not A Fan, but sometimes these things are necessarily.)

I think I can still manage the stuff what needs doing before the times when it needs to be done. But it feels--both literally and figuratively--like ground is slipping away beneath my feet.

I really hope sleep is a reset button.

Comments

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[reveritas.livejournal.com]

oh, man. Sympathy. Puppy kisses.

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

I have been getting those. I worried the dog yesterday. She made sure to sit directly on me so I wouldn't fall off the couch and land on the ceiling. She is a Very Considerate Poodle.

[dichroic.livejournal.com]

I hope tomorrow is much improved.

Glad Mark's trips are relatively short at the moment. (8 days sounds "relatively sort" from here, anyway, even if still longer than ideal.)

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

We are not particularly equipped to deal with them being any longer at the moment, in the practical sense, and so he didn't take a job where they would be. Or to put it another way: the walks to Ista's vet or the optometrist or the auto body shop are also short, but that doesn't mean I can do them without significant help.

[dichroic.livejournal.com]

I'm actually kind of amazed that you have short walks to a vet, an optometrist, and an autobody shop. I think they probably have the optometrist (or at least some options) where my parents live in Philadelphia, but not the others.

Sigh. Looks like my spouse will be going on a possibly 2-week-jaunt starting next week, and likely including out anniversary. I'm glad yours is able to avoid long trips.

[alecaustin.livejournal.com]

Definitely hoping that you feel better after some rest. Monotonic improvement would be nice.

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

We are scheduled for improvements in fields such as lack of you. So that's cheering.

[panjianlien.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry you've had such a crap day. I hope that from here it is easier and better.

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[talimena.livejournal.com]

I hope the reset button worked and makes at least some things better. (I realize grief isn't reset, but the other stuff.)

[mrissa.livejournal.com]

I knew someone whose grief was reset every day, because she had Alzheimer's and couldn't remember why her husband wasn't with her. It was not a kindness. As much as this sucks, I far prefer it.

[talimena.livejournal.com]

Oh, how horrible. I should have, but hadn't even thought of that.

[redbird]

*hug*

I hope it gets better soon.